- me: *wakes up*
- me: wheres my phone
- me: *rips off blankets*
- me: *hears loud thud*
- me: there it is
i will literally try to pet any cat i can don’t doubt me
i’ve been having thoughts lately about
you know that thing in all the shonen manga where a kid has one single Dream and they obsess on it and it looks impossible but they get there over the course of like 600 episodes or so
and really it’s a thing in a lot of media actually
you have to have A Dream and you have to focus on that thing and be super super into it always and Believe In Yourself (i don’t know what that means) and Never Give Up (even if taking a break or making a detour would get you to your goal faster) and the thing is
that makes really great tv
but it is no fucking way to live your actual life
the things that truly matter are not the things you can put into a single sentence
it’s great for a kid on tv to be like I’M GOING TO BE HOKAGE or I’M GOING TO BE KING OF THE PIRATES but that is a narrative choice the author made to entertain you, not a philosophical choice a real person made to live a fulfilling life
kid!me would never have stood silhouetted against the sunset and shouted I’M GOING TO BE A LOYAL FRIEND, A SUPPORTIVE HUSBAND, BE KIND TO SAD PEOPLE, BE GENTLE WITH ANIMALS AND CHILDREN, TRY ALL THE CRAFTS AND ART TECHNIQUES, TAKE TIME TO WATCH STORMS ROLL IN AND THE STARS COME OUT AND GO LOOKING FOR THE NORTHERN LIGHTS, THINK A LOT ABOUT COOL SCIENCE, AND WEAR REALLY COMFORTABLE CLOTHES!!!!
… but those are the things that make me glad to be alive, and make other people glad i’m alive.
if i’d been a shonen hero, i’d have shouted something about being a great writer, and then i guess i would’ve had adventures that involved doing pretty much only things that advanced my cause of being a great writer, and getting people to recognize my greatness, or something… idk, writing doesn’t translate well to shonen comics… but my point is, even if i became a great writer, i wouldn’t have become a great person, or a happy person for that matter.
i think where i’m going with this is: just because you can’t name a single, simple goal doesn’t mean you’re directionless. just because there’s no checkpoint for success, no point where the world cheers and gives you a medal and calls you a winner, doesn’t mean you’re losing.